It's only 16 days left now! Unbelievable. I've felt a little sorry for leaving my life here ever since I got back from my Xmas holiday, which is somewhat stupid - worrying about things I cannot affect is kind of like paying a bill twice - but then again, I sort of have to be mentally prepared to leave my life here. In many ways, it has been so much easier than life in Sweden. It's been like living in a bubble of vacation, even though I've worked a lot.
But even though I call Brighton home now, I still managed to get on the wrong bus when going home from work today and got, not lost, but definitively not where I meant to be.. Spent some 30 min wandering around in the darkness to get home. It's good to live on the top of a hill, then I know where to head.
Hmm I don't think the chalk cliffs are the main focus
of this picture. But they are pretty too.
Went for tea at a tea place close by, and played the association game, where you say one word and then the other person has to say the first word ve comes to think about, and so on. Halfway through I realised that D has studied psychology and probably knew more about me than I would want.. He claimed he wasn't analysing, but I'm not too sure. One thing I really like about him though is that I get the feeling that he'd accept me no matter what I said. I'm afraid I don't give him the same assurance.. I tend to expect too much from people, hope for more than I maybe should. Especially friends. I want them to be good in so many ways. Ironically, I've spent the past months trying to escape from other people's expectations on me. Am I repeating the behaviour I'm avoiding myself?
But even though I call Brighton home now, I still managed to get on the wrong bus when going home from work today and got, not lost, but definitively not where I meant to be.. Spent some 30 min wandering around in the darkness to get home. It's good to live on the top of a hill, then I know where to head.
Had a lovely weekend with lots of walking Saturday, it was lovely weather and I even saw a tree with tiny, tiny green leaves! Spring is in the air :) It was nice to spend time with people from outside work. Got home filled with various feelings from the day but my dinner company cancelled when he got a prettier date :) Spring is definitively in the air ;) (yep I'll keep teasing you for it). It makes me so glad to see people around me happy.
Went for another, but much shorter, walk on Sunday, around the Seven Sisters. I've been planning to go there for a while now - E even kindly offered me to borrow his bike to get there easily - but it just hasn't happened yet with the snow and other bad excuses. So Sunday morning (well, late morning, after I overslept) D picked me up and we went there. The Seven Sisters are not only the name of some good universities in the US, but also some very beautiful chalk cliffs close to Brighton.
Hmm I don't think the chalk cliffs are the main focus
3 februari 2010 kl. 23:44
Det är bara nyttigt för själen att förvänta sig att människor ska vara goda och allt igenom snälla. Tills man blir motbevisad lever man ju då i en fin värld, istället för att göra det HELA tiden. :-)
3 februari 2010 kl. 23:44
Ä, jag menar, alltså. Tror man dåligt om folk är ju världen ful jämt. Bättre med motsatsen.